If you are thinking of suicide you are not a demon, you are not weak, you are not selfish and you are not crazy – you have reached a point in your life where the pain you feel is greater than your ability to cope. Your pain is real and you want relief. Please realize though that to feel relief you must be alive – folks who succeed at suicide do not feel relief, they are dead and feel nothing, ever, as suicide is forever.
Now, if suicide is forever the pain you are feeling is not. You are not alone and there are people who want to help you. Some of these folks you already know, such as a trusted friend, a member of the clergy or your psychotherapist. Some you do not yet know such as the folks at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-237-8255 or the special 9 number manned by Covenant House for teens: 1-800-999-9999. Reach out to these caring folks. Just talking about the pain you feel can help alleviate some of the pain to where it has lessened to where you can cope with it. You can also check the front of your phonebook for a local crisis line or check the Internet.
Many times if you are thinking about suicide you are also suffering from depression. Depression is a real medical condition. Feelings of loneliness and inability to cope are symptoms of depression. The good news is that depression is treatable. There are a variety of ways to treat depression, so calling your healthcare provider should be added to the list of those who care and want to help you.
Put off acting on your thoughts for a day or two, or even a month. Talk to someone today – get the help you need to cope with whatever is hurting you. Pain can be dealt with but suicide is forever.